However, as it always happens, God likes to surprise people in the strangest of ways and so I unknowingly and unexpectedly ended up back in the dating scene sooner than I expected. At the time, I thought: "Why not? No harm in getting to know new people, right?" Boy, was I wrong.
What started out as something simple and unexpected quickly escalated into an emotional wrecking ball as Mr. Non-Exclusivity turned into Mr. Hyde practically overnight.
glasses from Four Eyes / Spiderman shirt from Folded & Hung / POW! necklace from House of Luxe / Wonder Woman watch from Tomato / grey skirt from TOPS / American flag boots from Chick Flick
While I was talking to other guys at the time - notably Mr. Cheerleader, Mr. Emo, Mr. Liar and Mr. Ira - I didn't really show much interest in any of them. See, I'm one of the pickiest girls on the planet. You have no idea.
But then, Mr. Emotionally Unavailable came along. And while we aren't/weren't(?) exactly "dating" per se… it's complicated… he made quite a mark on me. Let's hide him behind the name Steve.
The clincher, though, is that he is just as busy (if not busier!) than me; so there's no pressure to text 24/7 or see each other too often… which is exactly what I need right now what with my intense work schedule. No one seems to understand that.
I realize this doesn't sound like the perfect relationship setup, but like I said: I'm not ready for a full-blown relationship at this point and time. All I'm looking for is simplicity, consistency, pure awesomeness and a dash of sweetness and hot spice.
That's not all, though. Aside from everything I said earlier, Steve is also caring. When something's eating me up, he actually asks if I'm okay or tells me to calm down. He's a gentleman, in that he offers to carry my stuff, open cab doors and makes sure I get home safe. Did I mention that he's got a great last name and a killer kiss?!?? Lol.
What's crazy is that this amazingly perfect guy seems to think that he's lacking in certain ways. He thinks he's flawed. He think that he needs to change to make other people happy. Cray cray times one hundred!
I don't know about you guys, but I have always believed that you shouldn't need to change just to make other people happy. Just look for someone who will actually accept you, flaws and all. Or, even better, look for someone who will love you despite all of your flaws.
Pick me! Pick me! Hahahaha.
In all honesty, though, Steve has definitely set the bar high for all of the other guys I might meet in the future. If I die single, I will actually blame him forever for showing me that guys like him exist IRL. If you thought I was pickier before… well, I'm even pickier now.
All I want for Christmas right now is an emotionally available, not-in-love-with-someone-else version of Steve. But preferably also with a killer kiss. ...Killer arms optional.