Thursday, September 12, 2019

Nothing could have prepared me for the death of my dog.

Exactly a month ago, I lost my best friend: my dog Bucky. His death caught me at a vulnerable time. I was suffering mentally and emotionally because I had been away from him for almost a month (long story) and he was literally all I could think about. Maybe my heart was telling me that something was wrong. Maybe my broken soul could tell that he was suffering, as well.

Whatever the reason, I had never been so affected by death in my life. I don't really know how to explain it. After all, death was nothing new to me. I dreamt about it almost daily. I had lost many beloved friends and family members to it in the past. However, I had never felt the gut-wrenching pain of losing a dog before. Plus, it happened mere days after I had once again attempted to kill myself.


The downward spiral after his death was even more intense. I'd find myself not being able to sleep; and when I did, I found myself waking up to buckets of tears.

Bucky was such a big part of the last two years of my life and there was nothing I could do to save him. When I had no one to turn to, he was always there. And even though he couldn't talk, his presence alone was enough to make me feel a thousand times better.


Just feeling him lying next to me in the middle of the night - yes, he slept next to me on my bed - was all the comfort I needed to stop myself from crying through the night. And on extremely bad days when I didn't want to be a burden to anyone else, just feeling his fur between my fingers was enough to calm me down.

No one has ever been as happy to see me come home as Bucky was. No one has ever been as loyal as him, as loving as him, as caring as him, and as observant as him. Bucky knew whenever I was sad, coming up to me the minute the tears became just a little bit too much. He knew when I was angry, instantly barking to drown out my anger. And he knew when I was extra tired, even holding in his pee for hours until I was ready to get up and walk him.


Not everybody in my family appreciated Bucky. In fact, he was a reason of my mom's frustration and anger many, many times. But to me, he was practically like one of my children. I always said that Bucky was the best gift I had ever received (an ex of mine gave him to me on Valentine's Day!), and he really was.

Up until the night he died, I talked about him and worried about him more than anything. Before that, I'd cut my nights out short because he was on top of mind.

No matter how little sleep I had, I'd get up to walk him when no one else could. And at the slightest sign of strangeness, I'd be at the vet, where my vet would laugh at me most of the time and tell me that I worry too much for a furmomma. And worry I did. Particularly on every single day that he wasn't with me during his last days on Earth. My heart felt like it was draining every single day he was away, and now it just feels empty.


It has already been a month, but I'm still not feeling any better. I still freeze and tear up whenever I see a dog who looks even remotely similar to my boy. Sometimes, I find myself crying pretty loudly in the middle of the night because I miss him terribly. I always thought Syrena would be a teenager by the time Bucky died. I had this silly dream of building a mini-castle for him in my future garden and filling it with chihuahuas, and he'd be the king of them all. I always imagined he'd leave a mini-Bucky behind for us to love anew. But none of that happened.


This blog post is going to sound incredibly petty if you've never owned and loved a dog. But if you have and if you understand how I feel... may I know how you got over it? Is it even possible to? Please help this ex-furmomma out. :(

Monday, September 2, 2019

Luis Manzano Shares Why the Internet is So Important Nowadays

Luis Manzano isn't a new name in the showbiz realm. Through the years, he has managed to carve a name for himself and establish a career as a top-rating TV game show host and versatile actor. Recently, he was also launched as a brand ambassador for PLDT Home WiFi, a home Internet device that can be loaded with family-sized prepaid data packs.

This role as an ambassador reflects Luis' own digitally active lifestyle. He explains: "I'm online most time of the day. I take care of a lot of things and being online helps me on my daily tasks."

He adds, "I always have to be online. Sometimes, we think we're too addicted to the Internet or it takes us away from the real meaning of life. It's part and parcel of how we live now. It's how we balance everything. For me, nothing beats a really good, stable, and fast connection."

In his spare time, Luis likes playing his favorite games or geeking out online. "I'm always reading about nutrition, diving, fitness, a bit of general knowledge, anything trivial. I'm a proud nerd," he quips.

Being able to share Internet connectivity is also crucial to nurturing relationships in this digital age. He adds: "It's as simple as when you step out, when you converse, when you talk to your family and you go, 'Oh, have you seen this?" or "Oh, I've watched that, too!' It's sharing the impact of the actual 'connection'."


As an advocate of life-long learning, Luis also sees the value of home Internet in empowering school-age children. In this age of digitally savvy kids where everyone has access to online information, it is crucial to keep up and gain a competitive edge in order to stand out.

"Imagine: now you can have online research and group meetings for projects. And if you need extra help for a lesson, you can search online for video tutorials," Luis points out. "And when you're reviewing for an exam, you can do practice tests online. It's easier now for both parents and kids to excel and achieve their goals because of easy access to information."

He advises everyone to keep learning every chance they get. "I am happy that PLDT Home makes Internet more accessible to Filipino homes through their prepaid offering. Let's make the world a better place by encouraging more Filipinos to stay connected and be digitally informed," Luis concludes. "Let's all progress at the same time. The best way to get started is by having reliable Internet connection at home."

Watch PLDT Home's latest TVC here, which features the importance of Internet connection, especially for families with schoolchildren:




Although used as a retort back in the day, the phrase "Naks, daming alam!" has now become an expression for praise and admiration. Luis shares, "It's one of the biggest compliments. When someone tells me, 'Naks, daming alam', well, thank you very much! That's because I read and have access to reliable Internet connection to research and learn more about the world."

You and your family can now enjoy the perks of easy access to high-speed and reliable Internet from PLDT Home Wi-Fi powered by the country's fastest LTE from Smart.

The new PLDT Home WiFi is now available in more areas in the Philippines. For a one-time payment of Php1,995, you can buy this device at all PLDT stores and retailers, SM branches nationwide, and authorized dealers. It comes with free 10GB of data valid for 7 days. And because it is prepaid, you don't have to worry about lock-in periods, monthly bills, or bill shock from uncontrolled data usage.

For only Php199, you can avail of FAMLOAD 199, which offers up to 12GB of data valid for 7 days. FamLoad data packages are conveniently available at authorized PLDT and Smart retailers, nearby sari-sari stores, telco tiangge stalls, and 7-Eleven branches nationwide.